Lately..

I find myself not being able to pay attention. I don't know what it is exactly. Maybe it's just that I'm tired. Worn out. My brain is on the edge of going down. Re-booting. Blue screening. I've also noticed that my normal lack of patience has grown increasingly more impatient. I'm not really sure what that's all about either.

For example, this morning when I got to work, before I even got my coat off, 3 people (whom I find very very annoying) came up to me and started talking. I don't know, maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something..but I started feeling really pissed off. And the day just got increasingly worse from that point on. I just had no patience. Outside I smile, but inside, I'm screaming, cussing, kicking, biting, punching, etc etc. If people only knew the things I really thought, but did not say...I probably would be locked up by now.

Tonight at dinner, I started talking about something going on with some of my friends. My friend, we'll call him Jim-Bob, went to the YMCA to join. He also went with his partner, who we'll call Ricardo. They wanted to join under a family membership. Since, they do live (own) in the same house, and they did get married in BC. However, apparently the snotty teen working the desk told them no. Because they were not a man & a woman, they could not have a family membership. So, Jim-Bob told me about this. I told him that I was fairly sure that the Y went by address for a family membership, and he should contact the director of the facility. Well, Ricardo contacted someone pretty high up in the YMCA and was told no again. Though, he was apologized to as to how the situation was handled. Now, I don't really know how you feel about being gay, nor do I care how you feel. So please, don't tell me because honestly, I don't give a shit. But, I will say that this pisses me off for a few different reasons. #1 being that it's blatant discrimination..and yes, I'm aware there's a huge debate over gay marriage and life isn't always fair. But come on. I cannot believe that people still hate these days. #2 being that I have had a family membership with the Y for as long as I've been going to the Y. A few years ago, when my sister lived with us, she was on our Y membership. She has a different last name than me. There was never a question as to why. She lived at our house, and that was that. For all they know, she could have been my lesbian lover. She is, of course, only 5 years younger than me. #3 being why would the YMCA be hating on people. The Christian organization. Discriminating? I am a Christian. I am a Lutheran. I love God and I believe in God, and honestly, do the people at the YMCA believe that God is discriminating in his love to gay people? That somehow God loves straight people more than gay people? The whole situation just makes me upset..and I'm not even gay. And for me, it's not really about being gay. It's about being different. Weather your gay, straight, etc etc. There are so many what if's involved. I realize that the Y is a private organization. But, this is my blog and I can say whatever I want. With Jim-Bob & Ricardo's permission, I'd like to be an advocate for their right to have a family membership. And you know what, I don't care if you think that's stupid. For me, I feel that it's right. So if you don't like it, suck it. And I'm sorry if I seem hostile, but I'm a little upset.

So, with that I'm done. I'm going to finish watching TV, and I'm going to work on writing a letter. I bid you goodnight and I hope I'm a little more calm tomorrow.