Well,
I fired off an email this morning to the headhunters. I just explained that I didn't feel comfortable going back to this job and I apologized endlessly. I guess I'll find out how that goes over either later this morning, or this afternoon. I just feel like there's this huge cloud over me that won't go away. Maybe I'm bringing a lot of this on myself. I don't know. All I know is, I did not feel comfortable at this job and didn't want to be there. It's like, if I had interviewed directly at this company, I wouldn't have gone back for a 2nd interview. Sometimes I feel like I'm being a spoiled little brat. But, I don't mean to be. I just know this is not what I'm looking for. I don't know *exactly* what I'm looking for, but I know this is not it.
I hope someone reading this knows what I mean. Things just suck right now. And it's so weird because the other aspects of my life are great. I have great friends, a great husband, a happy home life, and basically, everything else is all puppies and butterflies...except for my career. And, it's so odd that this can make me feel as shitty as I'm feeling about it. Anyway, that's all I really have to say about it. It's really bugging me and I feel like shit. Welcome to my world.
2 Comments:
Hey Dana - you didn't sound happy about the place, and it's probably best you didn't stay. I mean I stayed at my last job (totally sucked, not even close to my field at all) for a year. Then one day I'm staring out into this endless field of dirt on a 95 degree day (like 100 something heat index), and said "F**k this, I'm putting in my notice!" --- Of course, I feel like you alot these days with that big "L" on my forehead, but nevertheless I can never work in that industry again. I had a friend of mine call me up yesterday sayng there are positions open at his new company (he left a few weeks before me, doing the same stuff) and I was like "Dude, if I wanted to be in that industry, I would have gone straight over to another company. I just can't do that stuff anymore." So I'm sticking to my guns, but this week is going to be slow anyways (right before Labor Day). Chill... I'm sure you'll end up somewhere that you like. Good luck, and your blog is really cool. - Mark Z. - http://slappedstupid.com
Dana - you might want to send your resume to this company - here is the link from monster.com -
http://jobsearch.monster.com/getjob.asp?JobID=23874666&AVSDM=2004%2D08%2D30+18%3A05%3A18&Logo=1&col=dltci&cy=US&brd=1%2C1862%2C1863&lid=497&fn=&q=
If that link above is incomplete or doesn't work, just go to monster.com -> Find New Job -> Select St. Louis, MO -> sort by date. It was posted yesterday 8/30 "Administrative Assistant", and the job is over in your neck of the woods - St. Chuck. :) - Mark Z. - http://slappedstupid.com
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